Day 2 all good; Sleep, still not so much

28Sep12

Food yesterday was great. It was definitely tougher to navigate the cravings and hunger, compared to the first day, but I made it. I almost caught a nap, but a call came in. We got to bed at the right time, but I couldn’t sleep for a while. Then, in the wee hours of morning, I was up and tossing and turning again. Got up for the day when hubby’s alarm went off to go to his conference. I really wish that I didn’t have such a negative reaction to melatonin supplements, or I’d probably start taking those. In the past, I’ve seen improvements at about day 3, so *knock on wood* that tonights sleep is significantly better.

Today is my medication evaluation with the psychiatrist. The more I think about it, the more I’m unsure if I want to make that leap – I’ll go, find out what they want to give me, do research on the side effects, etc, before making any decision. However, I can’t help but think that Paleo has ‘fixed’ me before, so why couldn’t it do it again. Granted, we haven’t had an emotional outburst, yet, since finding out the ‘why’ of it all. Maybe knowing it’s the illness talking up there, & not ‘reality’ per se, will keep me from going off the deep end. Maybe having hubby in my corner and using techniques I found for him to help in supporting and redirecting me when I’m like that will help. Maybe utilizing a safe place & my journal first and foremost will help. Maybe taking extra of the happy pills when I get wound up will help. I don’t know, but my first choice is NOT pharmaceuticals.

I’m still researching. I’ve ordered a couple of books & I’m thinking of ordering some stuff like evening primrose oil – supposedly will help with hormone balance. Thinking of adding in more salmon for omega3′s. Oh, and liver, on a weekly basis – nature’s multivitamin. I’ve also upped my D3 to a daily dosage of 20K (each drop is 4K).

Anyone with experience with bipolar or PTSD, or with a family member/friend with either – any advice or resource you can pass along is greatly appreciated.

HUGS!!

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