Update/Broken Interwebs/Taking the Scenic Route
Sorry I’ve been MIA. This weekend we came home from new-smoker frivolity at my Mom’s to find power out to the whole block next to us. Apparently effected by that was our Interwebs/TV box w/ the Uverse equipment in it. 12 hours later we began a 4-day long saga to regain our lifeline to the world. & not just that, but thanks to the D-Bags who are the movie industry, we couldn’t even watch our ‘recorded’ content, because w/o Internet it couldn’t validate our ‘permission’ to watch stuff. Fers. Even though the power came back on w/in 24 hours, and the Uverse outage was resolved within 36 hours, our modem continued to act all petulant and so we had to wait for them to ship us a new one. I’m here, so I guess you can assume the new modem is functioning. 
So, where am I in the Countdown to 100lbs Gone Forever challenge? No freaking idea. I”m so in love with my new kidney functionality. Unfortunately, not as easy to fix as being shipped a new modem. I spent several days not going, and water is heavy, yo. Things are getting better, so I’ll get to weighing myself again soon.
Truth be told, I’m not in a big hurry. Some stuff I caught on my FaceBook, w/ the really crappy 3G signal we had the four days our Uverse was out, reminded me why I’m on this journey – for life.
Jenna started it by asking her FB peeps to use one word to summarize our journey with Paleo. I replied with: “Health. As much as I’d like it to be the sexiness, smaller clothes, etc. It’s really the health improvements that keep me Paleo.”
I’d do this if I stayed 240lbs for the rest of my life. Because it’s what I need to do. The health improvements can’t be argued with.
Then, dear Papa Grok posted this: ”Muscle definition and weight are NOT the only indicators of how GROK you are….NEVER be downed about yourself, how you look, how others look and whether you come up to THEIR Grok…..IT’S ABOUT YOU and the future of you….So look inside you after you look around you.. YOU will be the one who is there…GROK ON …Be happy…use what you can…ditch the rest…and smile, for YOU are BEING the change that YOU wish to see.. One must be aware though that Muscles usually do come with this Endevour.”
I love this because it really could be easy (and I’ve done it a lot the last couple of years) to get down on myself for not being the ‘after’ yet – at least visually. Considering what I’ve accomplished with my health, I shouldn’t feel guilty. It’s not easy to do what I’ve done to conquer emotional eating, health problems, disability, and over 90 pounds of body fat. I’ve stood in my own way a lot. I have had to refocus and readjust and refire the engines a thousand times. I’m human. lol.
It’s extremely important to keep going no matter how long it takes to reach a milestone. I’m in it for the health, first and foremost, because that’s what suffers the most when I go off plan. Not my waistline. Not my self-worth or self-image. I keep going because, regardless of weight successes or failures, Paleo is the Optimal Health & Well-Being Plan.
What other plan do you know of that will make you feel like a million bucks regardless of what the scale says?
It’s well past time to reevaluate the messages we get from society and regurgitate on ourselves our whole lives. It’s well past time to LIVE.
Filed under: Paleo/Primal WOL | 3 Comments
Tags: depression, detox, emotional eating, exercise, healthy, paleo, Primal, weight loss
Excellent post…it has to be about “you.”
hey, hey you… You’re awesome. <3